I decided to start posting videos on youtube since I am not allowed any contact with them unless by phone IF I sign documents saying I will never talk about this or the fact that they are forced into therapy that they never needed before.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
I know it's been a while since I updated about the traumatic events going on with the kidnapping of my children, but I'm sure you can understand as close to superhuman strength as I am, I still am only human and can only take so much pain at one time. Just because I'm not writing about them everyday here doesn't not mean a minute goes by where I am not thinking of them, dreaming of them, fantasizing about then being here with me where they belong, of the old days in our perfect magical heaven we created...
My last updates were in August, the month that my children were sent away. No notice, no warnings, just here are your babies for your supervised visitation in the courthouse on the 11th, then 13th a court date sending them off without a thing I could do. Not a single person even told me what the court was about and they all acted like they had no idea and it came out of the blue.
Not one word from my babies since...
Here we are over 2 months later. I get a knock at my door today and it's Rebecca and an assistant. They came to deliver a notice about how I can get in touch with my baby Amberly, and asked if I had talked to Samantha yet, since they had delivered the same notice about a month ago to my door. (I love how they continue to come to my home unannounced.)
I got in touch with the woman in charge of handling my baby Samantha to be sent a packet telling me that not only do I have to pay 110-125 per "visit" which takes place over the phone 1500 miles away while my daughter is being forced into a "therapeutic" environment which we are both against, never mind their perfect physical and mental health evaluations when they kidnapped them in April, but I am also basically being given an ultimatum while my children are being used as collateral.
I open my packet, anxious to find out how I can buy time with my angels to find this on the front cover:
Looks pretty benign so far...simple procedure, right?
Oh, I see where they are going to get me...
"I understand that any telephone visitations with my daughter, myself and my daughters therapist Elaine O'Reilly may not be audio taped. In addition, I also understand that these sessions are by law, confidential. As such, I may not disclose the content of these sessions, the fact that my daughter is in therapy, nor share the name of my daughters therapist with others. Especially, I understand and agree that I may not include this information in any blogs, facebooks or other internet correspondences."Ooops, I guess I already broke that "agreement," huh? In fact I broke it two months ago when Rebecca told me that she was looking to find "therapeutic" phone visits with their new found therapists in the states they shipped them to.
I love how they say no audio taping, especially since EACH visit I have had with my children or anyone related with the kidnapping services was completely LIED about to the judge. Audio taping of each session is all I have for posterity and PROOF that they are continuously LYING to the judge to separate our family...but I guess I'm not allowed that now...gee, I wonder what they are going to do when I expose all the audio and video I have already taken of their actions? I wonder how they are going to continue to lie about that...oops, did I just admit in public that I have taped all correspondence with them? Yeah, I did...so now what?
And they KNOW I have them by the balls with my recordings, which is why they want me to sign something saying I will not tape MY sessions I am paying for to speak to MY babies.
I wonder how they are going to love seeing the audio and videos I have...I especially like the one where the worker Rebecca tried to pretend I was causing a problem at a visit with my babies and threatened to have me kicked out of the building...of course I smiled and laughed and said, pretty please go get him...and say hi to my camera right there as I pointed at it...now you know why I REFUSE to do anything with you people that is not taped! When she saw the camera, she knew she lied and there was nothing left for her to do but walk away...since I had her by the balls and she knows she will make a hit on youtube!
Or of course the video of "the-rapist" Shaun Lotter telling me that I was not allowed to blog about certain things on my site regarding MY children and DEMANDED that I take down what I had previously said.
Let's not forget all the meetings we had where they completely lied to me about the course of action for my angels...said one thing in the meetings, in fact even made promises, then completely reneged and did the opposite the following day...like forcing my children to take drugs and shots after being told they might die if they continue to refuse their drugs.
So now they are saying that I am not allowed to ever talk about my babies, the fact that they are being FORCED in to therapy after they were kidnapped from my home and the impact it has upon us? Not to anyone? No friends, family, blogs, show, etc...? Do you really think I'm going to sign something that says I will never talk about my children and what you have done to them? What if one day I decided I actually needed a therapist of my own...would I still not be able to make any mention of my children being in therapy or what we talk about...? Sound like an effective therapy session...NOT!
Do they really think they can use my children again to shut me up?
I mean didn't they just hold my babies hostage in June when the "the-rapist" Shaun Lotter effectively cut off visitation and trumped court ordered visitation with my children because I refused to take down a blog speaking about what was going on. Those blogs can be found here and here.
So this is how they are going to get me to shut up, huh? Incrementally shut down my show, my blogs, my free speech, my soul, the hearts and minds of my angels and myself?
Here is page 3 where they tell me how much all these "services" they are forcing at gunpoint are going to cost me:
(This is where you can hear our last phone call where she is trying to describe the benefit of the "services" they provide.)
Oh wow, that's sweet! They are going to charge me the going rate for their services I don't want or need to speak to my kidnapped children! Boy oh boy! Only 110-125 per session! YIPPIE! What a free american I am...we are so lucky to have all these people protecting us from ourselves at their exorbitant prices and ransom demands!
Need I go on and even waste ink or time describing why I WILL NOT COMPLY?
YOU KIDNAPPED MY CHILDREN AT GUNPOINT! YOU DESTROYED MY FAMILY!
YOU FALSELY ARREST EVERYONE WITNESSING YOUR HORRENDOUS ACTIONS AFTER BREAKING IN MY HOUSE WITH NO WARRANT, NO CHARGES, NO INVESTIGATION!
CHARGE 3 INNOCENT PEOPLE WITH "CRIMES" YOU MADE UP 24 HOURS AFTER THE FACT!
HOLD MY BABIES HOSTAGE AND USE THEM AS LEVERAGE TO SHUT ME UP!
ABUSE, NEGLECT AND MAL-NOURISH MY BABIES WHICH ARE EVIDENT IN THE PHOTOS...AND SO OBVIOUS THE JUDGE HAD TO ORDER NO MORE PHOTOS WHILE IN THEIR "CARE."
NOW YOU TELL ME I CAN PAY TO TALK TO THEM OVER THE PHONE, BUT NEVER SPEAK ABOUT THEM BEING FORCED TO BE IN YOUR CARE, NEVER TALK ABOUT WHAT I DISCUSS WITH MY ANGELS!
ARE YOU PEOPLE SMOKING CRACK???
ARE YOU PURPOSEFULLY TRYING TO GET ME TO SIGN SOMETHING YOU KNOW I WILL NOT COMPLY WITH SO THAT YOU FINALLY HAVE ME WITH A "CRIME" TO JUSTIFY YOUR ACTIONS?
See photos of how well taken care of my babies are after they protected them from their loving mother here!
See thousands of photos of our lovely life BEFORE the kidnapping here!
Sorry, I will not comply.
My children have never needed a the-rapist and as per your intake reports, they didn't need one when you stole them either.
My 850 dollar full day psychological evaluation came out CLEAN, no diagnosis', no issues, with a recommendation of sending my children home immediately. Interesting how that never made it to the judge.
READ IT HERE!
You tell my children that I don't love them and that's why I wasn't there to visit them and that's why they were sent away! Is this what you call protecting my children? Purposefully LYING to them while you continue to brainwash them untouched...then to tell me when I am in "visitation" with them that I'm not even allowed to discuss this case or anything related to it, including that it's not true that I wanted them "gone because I don't love them," as per your independent and sneaky, deceitful evaluation...?
KISS MY ASS!
Yeah, that's what I say to you baby snatching parasites out there! Your fraudulent family and juvenile courts who operate under whatever "law" they decide to make up that day...what kind of country are we in? That's right, Nancy Schaefer told us, she exposed you, but you KILLED her!
Note about "wiretapping"
Before you get all pissy about my recording these calls and meetings without your consent, READ THIS:
* That's me!"MissouriAn individual who is a party to a wire communication, or who has the consent of one of the parties to the communication*, can lawfully record it or disclose its contents, unless the person is intercepting the communication for the purpose of committing a criminal or tortious act. Mo. Rev. Stat. § 542.402. Recording or disclosing the contents of a wire communication by all other persons is a felony."
I consented to recording my calls with all representatives of these unlawful agencies that invaded my life, my home and my family without due process in order to prevent any further criminal acts by those acting unlawfully against my family and myself.
And for the record, I have no special technical abilities to do so...I put my phone on speaker and turned on my video camera. To date, there are no laws in place that say I can not video tape myself while talking on the phone.
I also have skype and pamela, which part of their free "service" they record time and day stamps of all outgoing and incoming calls since the beginning of the service.
Thank you for your services, I will not be needing them.
I received a response from Eileen and I thank her for such a quick response:
I make it a practice not to go to other websites when clients send me something as you did. If you would like to e-mail me again with the reasons you are not signing in your e-mail, rather then sending me to another site, I would appreciate it. I am assuming that, since I would need these forms signed to set up a phone meeting between yourself and your daughter, that by not signing you are aware that I am not able to set up a phone session with yourself and your daughter. If you elect to sign the forms, or if you let me know directly what issue you have with the forms and there is a way to modify them that still meets my legal criteria, I will then be available to set up the call.Elaine O'Reilly
Okay, I will just copy and paste the blog with my response and update about this situation:
[blog posted here]
Specifically what I will not sign is the fact that I will not talk about this situation with anyone or update my posts about how my children are doing.
I will not sign something saying I will not record.
I will not be financially responsible for a forced "service" that I oppose.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Next Episode - Saturday, November 13, 2010:
The Ego Deception
Special Edition Broadcast tonight!
Louie Bee of Crotch Shot Radio http://crotchshotradio.com James Burns of Freedom Files http://freedomfiles.us/ and I are going to be clearing up the air here with some silly allegations that have been made about me by Chris Geo and Sheree Dill of Truth Frequency Radio after a series of attempts to reel me in to their deceptions and twisted sex fantasy.
It all started when they invited me over, of course I didn't know that Sheree was bi and that they were going to BEG me to have sex with them...lol
This is where it begins, in August.
Then in September on my way home from the Wolf adventure, Sheree calls and practically begs me to come over, so I drive all the way down from the 40 to Dallas, 14 hours out of my way, instead of staying on the 40 to go straight home to walk into some serious drama, including more begging, propositions, because they said I was the only one who could save their relationship by having sex with them and lying down and allowing them to worship me like a goddess.
So after staying up all night, they pretend that all is well, invite me to dinner, a very nice dinner I must admit, but I had no idea that accepting their dinner invitation would lead to expectations about having a threesome with them that night.
I could tell Sheree really didn't want to do it with me because she feared Chris really loved me, so I asked Chris to leave the room and had a several hour conversation with her where she told me all the dynamics of their relationship (ones I did not see in my 5 days there with them) She said if I was just some random person she would love to and they both thanked me and said they respected me for not going through with it.
Of course that didn't mean Geo didn't stop trying.
Sheree took about 70 pills, 3 different kinds in an attempt to kill herself. I was supposed to be home but I felt it was more important to stay and help nurse her back to health. I mean how can someone walk out after someone does that. Of course I didn't want to involved police, hospitals, psychiatrists, etc, so I stayed and called my friend in Ohio who called her doctor for advice. She spent about 4 hours on the phone with us that day while Sheree was falling down the stairs locking herself the bathroom with a knife, pulling out plants, slamming things, destroying things, etc.
We had my van packed twice that day. I was going to either take her home with me to help her get off the drugs and out of her abusive relationship, or to her mothers which would have been another 5 hours out of my way. When I told her she would not be able to bring her drugs with her to my house, she freaked out and decided she wanted to go to her parents since they would allow her and facilitate her drug abuse.
It was so weird being there and seeing these people in these conditions, I mean really...don't they talk about infinite love and higher consciousness? Don't they expose the drugs and big pharma? hmmmmm...maybe it's time to practice what one preaches...?
Anyway, after that, I really really had to go...Geo was still trying to convince me to smoke dmt and make out with him so he could worship me like a goddess, the epitomy of divine feminine he said and show me heaven. LOL
Yeah right little boy..........so after going home, I found Sheree was still there. We had scheduled to do a show together about "Infinite Love" on September 27th. http://truthbrigade.org/smf/index.php/topic,5933.0.html
then Chris message me 5 minutes before the start to informed me that Sheree had injured herself and he had to take her to the hospital.
He did eventually join us about 20 minute before the end of the show as you will see in the archive...so we had to wing it last minute since I'm certainly not an expert on "infinite love" as Geo claims to be...thought it would be a good topic though. :-)
Right after that, Sheree moved out again and kept in contact with a few of my friends, then ultimately asked Louie is I would forgive her and would add her on skype. I did that night and the chat is posted here:
She divulges more insight in to what she endured with Chris
She went form wanting to do a show with us because they had brought the idea up about doing a female round table show on AFR. We invited her to join us occasionally as we are looking for a few different womens perspectives, she expressed how she would not take any more of Chris abuse and came on the phone with us. 7 people present. Then as you can see in the chat, her position changed, she obviously talked to Geo and he told her she couldn't do a show with us, come on baby, do a show with me, you're my twin flame...even though that is what he has been telling me the past couple months as I have been trying to ward off his advances, while professing his undying love for me. LOL
After this he decided to contact people on the network, contact other people I have never heard of and ask them to harass me, contact me and Louie under different names, he grabbed at having over 15 fake profiles, then proceed to make posts about how I was chasing him, how I wanted to infiltrate his show and break up him and Sheree...LOL
Of course the network knew since they wanted to fire him since August what he was doing, but Geo got his claws in to me while I was out of town so I didn't know what he was doing to the network on my month long vacation. They thought there was something wrong with me for allowing him to infiltrate my show, but they knew since they never had any problems with me, that maybe I could tone him down a bit and that he would chill out. They gave it a go, with Chris and I doing a show together occasionally, but the problems got worse. He even went so far as to try to change my schedule behind my back, meanwhile contacting other hosts on the network stirring up trouble with them.
He then start to post scripts on his website about what supposedly happened and said that I was chasing him, that I was in love with , had sex with him, and made up a whole hollywood script about how I supposedly threatened him then put out a video showing HOW he spoofed out chat that never existed.
So in retaliation, I decided to post all our REAL chats and some audios. This is what we are going to talk about tonight.
here is where you can find all the blogs and audio:
Hollywood and MKULTRA with Esoteric Kitten Is our Political System Completely Broken with Tobias Lars Part 2 Interview with Clayton Douglas
The Mysterious Roots of Modern Music with Christopher Knowles
UPCOMING SHOWS Check the calendar!
Time: 7 – 9 PM Central Time
Friday, November 12, 2010
[10/23/2010 12:03:36 AM] Chris Geo: well, I re-read what you wrote me
[10/23/2010 12:03:42 AM] Chris Geo: and it didn't hit me until the second time
[10/23/2010 12:03:52 AM] Chris Geo: and you like... called me out
[10/23/2010 12:03:54 AM] Chris Geo: to the T
[10/23/2010 12:04:00 AM] Chris Geo: so.... what do I have to do?
[10/23/2010 12:04:00 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: oops
[10/23/2010 12:04:03 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I'm sorry
[10/23/2010 12:04:11 AM] Chris Geo: it's ok. I needed it. It broke me.
[10/23/2010 12:04:27 AM] Chris Geo: I just started bursting into tears.
[10/23/2010 12:04:32 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I didn't mean to, I'm sorry...
[10/23/2010 12:04:34 AM] Chris Geo: so I guess that's the negative energy starting to be released
[10/23/2010 12:04:41 AM] Chris Geo: what do I do now?
[10/23/2010 12:04:55 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: well, it depends, what do you want?
[10/23/2010 12:04:55 AM] Chris Geo: we can talk abotu it later
[10/23/2010 12:05:00 AM] Chris Geo: I don't want to bring you down
[10/23/2010 12:05:19 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I'm okay, jsut had a nice long chat with my girlfriend, sh'es getting a healing tomorrow...so I'm glad for her!
[10/23/2010 12:05:26 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I think it would be a very good idea for you too
[10/23/2010 12:05:34 AM] Chris Geo: yea, I'm definitely doing it
[10/23/2010 12:05:37 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I think there is an attachment......
[10/23/2010 12:05:43 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: well do you really want me to be honest with you?
[10/23/2010 12:05:44 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: lol
[10/23/2010 12:05:46 AM] Chris Geo: yes
[10/23/2010 12:05:49 AM] Chris Geo: please
[10/23/2010 12:05:50 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: you sure?
[10/23/2010 12:05:52 AM] Chris Geo: yes
[10/23/2010 12:05:54 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: you won't be mad at me? lol
[10/23/2010 12:05:56 AM] Chris Geo: no
[10/23/2010 12:06:12 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: okay, I think your attachments are to the material plane
[10/23/2010 12:06:18 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: the senses...
[10/23/2010 12:06:22 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: it's not coming from you
[10/23/2010 12:06:36 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: but you are allowing it to occupy you
[10/23/2010 12:06:55 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I think you ahve attchment from past lives that follow you, hence the zach buddy who came in when you were a child
[10/23/2010 12:07:00 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: he feeds off life force
[10/23/2010 12:07:07 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: yours and anyone else he can occupt or entice
[10/23/2010 12:07:15 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: occupy
[10/23/2010 12:07:35 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: he has been very pleased, but is keeping you freom being where you want to be
[10/23/2010 12:08:20 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I think there is an addiction, but you don't quite see it that way right now...yes, I know you believe sex is the cure all answer and route to god, but the truth is you are using it as a mask
[10/23/2010 12:08:29 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: a way to suppress and not deal with the raw heart of the emotions
[10/23/2010 12:08:38 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: so zach feeds your ego
[10/23/2010 12:08:40 AM] Chris Geo: I know
[10/23/2010 12:08:41 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: and sensual desires
[10/23/2010 12:08:44 AM] Chris Geo: I know
[10/23/2010 12:08:49 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: and you can blame him if you want to
[10/23/2010 12:08:57 AM] Chris Geo: I have sexual desires that are not mine. I know they are not mine.
[10/23/2010 12:09:00 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: kind of liek the proverbial "the devil made me do it"
[10/23/2010 12:09:27 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: yes, and there's nothing wrong with simply having those desires..........BUT it will not cure or heal anything when not being done in a pure manner
[10/23/2010 12:09:50 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: so if you really want to know what I think, I think you need to banish zach...and reclaim your pieces
[10/23/2010 12:09:56 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: anyone who is holding on to a piece of your soul
[10/23/2010 12:10:00 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: any control issues
[10/23/2010 12:10:10 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: over you or from you...release all....
[10/23/2010 12:10:12 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: say it outloud
[10/23/2010 12:10:16 AM] Chris Geo: we're being honest?
[10/23/2010 12:10:23 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I am done with you ego, I know who you are, you are that little reptilian dude
[10/23/2010 12:10:28 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: you are not allowed oin my sphere
[10/23/2010 12:10:36 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: tell them to go away and reclaim yourself
[10/23/2010 12:10:41 AM] Chris Geo: I am afriad to let him go. he makes sure bad shit doesn't happen and everything is good.. as long as I feed him what he wants
[10/23/2010 12:10:48 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I understand
[10/23/2010 12:10:54 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: he tried to entice me that night
[10/23/2010 12:10:59 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: and told me I was oging to jail if I don't
[10/23/2010 12:11:08 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: he said he would protect me
[10/23/2010 12:11:09 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: lol
[10/23/2010 12:11:11 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: total lie
[10/23/2010 12:11:14 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: but that's what they do
[10/23/2010 12:11:21 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: so I understand you being afraid to release him...
[10/23/2010 12:11:23 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: BUT
[10/23/2010 12:11:30 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: that's where the REAL healing begins. :)
[10/23/2010 12:11:34 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: that's where the fun begons :)
[10/23/2010 12:11:37 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: YOU can do itQ!
[10/23/2010 12:11:40 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: You don't need a crutch!
[10/23/2010 12:11:54 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: you don't need to be in fear of a thing....you can let him go and feed YOUR soul
[10/23/2010 12:12:01 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: you are not feeding your soul no matter how much sex you get
[10/23/2010 12:12:01 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: now
[10/23/2010 12:12:02 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: why?
[10/23/2010 12:12:08 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: beause it's all going to him
[10/23/2010 12:12:17 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: he is sucking your energy dry and anyone you come in contact with
[10/23/2010 12:12:34 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: especially women..................who accept those demons...................which could be a reason Sheree was tripping the way she was
[10/23/2010 12:12:35 AM] Chris Geo: I know. I feel worn down all the time.
[10/23/2010 12:12:41 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: yeah, I'm sorry......
[10/23/2010 12:12:52 AM] Chris Geo: it is what it is
[10/23/2010 12:12:55 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: :)
[10/23/2010 12:12:57 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: it's all good
[10/23/2010 12:12:57 AM] Chris Geo: but I'll do whatever I have to do
[10/23/2010 12:13:04 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: look man, if I can do it, ANYONE can!
[10/23/2010 12:13:28 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: for reasl, I'm nothing special, it's really aseasy as saying it and meaning it....then kleeping up the workl and dedication too not allow him to trick himself back in
[10/23/2010 12:13:32 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: he will come in many forms
[10/23/2010 12:13:39 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: many business deals, friends, associates, etc....
[10/23/2010 12:13:41 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: to tempt you
[10/23/2010 12:13:47 AM] Chris Geo: I really love you in a way I've never felt about anyone before. I've never wanted to share my soul with somebody. I'm sorry I'm not ready. I want to be ready.
[10/23/2010 12:14:07 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: :)
[10/23/2010 12:14:16 AM] Chris Geo: I wish you would have told me this earler
[10/23/2010 12:14:19 AM] Chris Geo: earlier
[10/23/2010 12:14:30 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: told you what?
[10/23/2010 12:14:33 AM] Chris Geo: all of this
[10/23/2010 12:14:37 AM] Chris Geo: everything
[10/23/2010 12:14:48 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: well, what could I ahve said...? It's not my job...lol
[10/23/2010 12:14:53 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I mean unless you ask....
[10/23/2010 12:14:53 AM] Chris Geo: everything you told me today. It would have saved me weeks of frustration and heart ache :P
[10/23/2010 12:15:32 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I"m sorry, I hope that people will find out on their own, I guess, I don't like to unduely influence someone who doesn't want what I might have to say....AND I don't want to hurt anyone...I'm sorry...
[10/23/2010 12:15:44 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I'm glad you're asking though, because I Was wondering, how do I tell you, should I even waste my time?
[10/23/2010 12:16:18 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I know the good Chris, but the ZachChris is a bit over bearing and arrogant and immature...which is okay...it's appropriate considering... :)
[10/23/2010 12:16:34 AM] Chris Geo: I know. It's not the first time I've heard that
[10/23/2010 12:16:39 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: so I Don't want to over step my bounds and it took me a fwe to really soak it up and understand
[10/23/2010 12:17:06 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: that ewxperience I had last week with Zach, I'm not even sure I told you the whole thing, if I forgot to ell you about the jail part and the fear part
[10/23/2010 12:17:09 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: he was trying to play me
[10/23/2010 12:17:15 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: but it took me a while to process it.........
[10/23/2010 12:17:37 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: so..........what am I supposed to do? I allow you and everyone to be who they are? What was I suposed to tell you? lol
[10/23/2010 12:17:48 AM] Chris Geo: he's been out of control since I talked to Sakti
[10/23/2010 12:18:00 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: oh yeah, because he knows she can kick his ass if you won't :)
[10/23/2010 12:18:01 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: BUT
[10/23/2010 12:18:03 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: this is the problem
[10/23/2010 12:18:19 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: IF YOU DONT DO THE WORK HE WILL COME BACK....WITH 7 buddies...................
[10/23/2010 12:18:22 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: so.................
[10/23/2010 12:18:32 AM] Chris Geo: what do I have to do?
[10/23/2010 12:18:45 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: that is the reason I ahd to stop helping Brad, he never did the work, would come to me, blah blah blah...........after a while I ahd to say no more...
[10/23/2010 12:19:01 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: Well, Sakti talked about spiritual purity tonight...
[10/23/2010 12:19:04 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: that's one thing
[10/23/2010 12:19:11 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: but you must WILL him gone?
[10/23/2010 12:19:15 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: are you ready to say goodbye?
[10/23/2010 12:19:18 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: that's 17 years of your life
[10/23/2010 12:19:28 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: if you don't relaly mean it, he will come back
[10/23/2010 12:19:33 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: so......................that's the first step
[10/23/2010 12:19:35 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: make the decision
[10/23/2010 12:19:40 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: decide what you REALLY want
[10/23/2010 12:19:49 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: if you want him to go, don't just ask him, tell him
[10/23/2010 12:19:59 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: and tell him I or Sakti will come after his ass...lol just kidding
[10/23/2010 12:20:04 AM] Chris Geo: haha
[10/23/2010 12:20:15 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: but really mean it, he is not allowed to affect your sphere, any of it
[10/23/2010 12:20:27 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: not your property, not your soul, not your friends, not your whatever..............
[10/23/2010 12:20:32 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: say it ouyt loud
[10/23/2010 12:20:36 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: with your heart, your soul
[10/23/2010 12:20:42 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: cry if you have to
[10/23/2010 12:20:45 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: scream if you have to
[10/23/2010 12:21:11 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: get thee behind me, you are not welcome in my sphere...go back where you came from!
[10/23/2010 12:21:23 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: then do what you can to clean out your body, your temple....
[10/23/2010 12:21:32 AM] Chris Geo: do you want to hear something strange? All of my ex girlfriends ex boyfriends names were Zach for the past 15 years
[10/23/2010 12:21:41 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: slow baby steps, if you want me to give you a regimine, I can..
[10/23/2010 12:21:43 AM] Chris Geo: I just realizedt aht
[10/23/2010 12:21:47 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: wow, weird
[10/23/2010 12:21:54 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I've never had a Zach :)
[10/23/2010 12:22:04 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: maybe a Chris...
[10/23/2010 12:22:05 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: lol
[10/23/2010 12:22:08 AM] Chris Geo: Sheree's babies daddy :P is Zach
[10/23/2010 12:22:11 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: wow
[10/23/2010 12:22:14 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: intersting
[10/23/2010 12:22:18 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: you see how he's running your life
[10/23/2010 12:22:18 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: ?
[10/23/2010 12:22:21 AM] Chris Geo: yea. Anthoulas ex boyfriend, Zach
[10/23/2010 12:22:22 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: that's not a coincidnece
[10/23/2010 12:22:27 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: you are being controlled by another realm
[10/23/2010 12:22:30 AM] Chris Geo: Ambers ex boyfriend... Zach
[10/23/2010 12:22:31 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: this is not the physical plane
[10/23/2010 12:22:35 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: so that's good...you're not a fed
[10/23/2010 12:22:36 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: lol
[10/23/2010 12:22:41 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: you're just slightly possessed...lol
[10/23/2010 12:22:44 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: :)
[10/23/2010 12:22:49 AM] Chris Geo: of course I'm not a fed
[10/23/2010 12:22:50 AM] Chris Geo: :P
[10/23/2010 12:22:50 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: :D
[10/23/2010 12:22:52 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I know that
[10/23/2010 12:22:53 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: lol
[10/23/2010 12:22:56 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: just funning with you :)
[10/23/2010 12:23:06 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: you're a good guy, I see your heart, everyone does...........
[10/23/2010 12:23:15 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: BUT, you need to decide what do you really want?
[10/23/2010 12:23:16 AM] Chris Geo: I know. :) A lot of people sya that
[10/23/2010 12:23:29 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: do you really want the path or do you want to just talk about it....either choice is okay, it's up to you!
[10/23/2010 12:23:40 AM] Chris Geo: well you know what they say...
[10/23/2010 12:23:42 AM] Chris Geo: those who can't...
[10/23/2010 12:23:44 AM] Chris Geo: teach
[10/23/2010 12:23:47 AM] Chris Geo: hehehe
[10/23/2010 12:23:53 AM] Chris Geo: I'm joking
[10/23/2010 12:23:55 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: lol
[10/23/2010 12:24:20 AM] Chris Geo: yes, I want to do whatever it takes to not have to come back to this god forsaken plane again
[10/23/2010 12:24:31 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: demand he goes now!:)
[10/23/2010 12:24:35 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: spend all weekend doing that
[10/23/2010 12:25:24 AM] Chris Geo: I had 7 demons
[10/23/2010 12:25:31 AM] Chris Geo: the first time I did ayahuasca
[10/23/2010 12:25:35 AM] Chris Geo: I saw them
[10/23/2010 12:25:46 AM] Chris Geo: and I chased them in the astral plane with a sword and cut their heads off
[10/23/2010 12:25:52 AM] Chris Geo: but I couldn't get to zach
[10/23/2010 12:26:08 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: oh nice....so you know about demon slaying
[10/23/2010 12:26:14 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: practice makes perfect :)
[10/23/2010 12:26:18 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: so is that what you REALLY want?
[10/23/2010 12:26:20 AM] Chris Geo: yes. I need to take ayahuasca again
[10/23/2010 12:26:24 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: have Sakti help you............?
[10/23/2010 12:26:29 AM] Chris Geo: it's been a LONG time since I've done it
[10/23/2010 12:26:29 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I would like to take it again too...
[10/23/2010 12:26:36 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: you need to teach me how to do it
[10/23/2010 12:26:48 AM] Chris Geo: doesn't love kill the demon?
[10/23/2010 12:26:57 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: well, yes, BUT
[10/23/2010 12:26:59 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: what is love?
[10/23/2010 12:27:07 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: it's not sex and it's not lust :)
[10/23/2010 12:27:11 AM] Chris Geo: I know
[10/23/2010 12:27:16 AM] Chris Geo: that's not what I'm talking about
[10/23/2010 12:27:18 AM] Chris Geo: you know that
[10/23/2010 12:27:37 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: so LOVE yourself and disconnect him from your life
[10/23/2010 12:28:19 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: LOVE yourself by getting enough sleep
[10/23/2010 12:28:21 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: some sunshine
[10/23/2010 12:28:25 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: some nutrition
[10/23/2010 12:28:27 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: some good water
[10/23/2010 12:28:30 AM] Chris Geo: I know. I have a lot of work to do. It starts tomorrow. The new existance in a new place with a gym just a few feet away and solitude
[10/23/2010 12:28:39 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: yup, you can do it
[10/23/2010 12:28:58 AM] Chris Geo: maybe that's why they told you "not yet"
[10/23/2010 12:29:01 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: out door..sunshine
[10/23/2010 12:29:11 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: I can see in your eyes, he is dragging you down
[10/23/2010 12:29:14 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: we can feel him
[10/23/2010 12:29:19 AM] Chris Geo: we?
[10/23/2010 12:29:20 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: ask him to move on
[10/23/2010 12:29:35 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: we as in me and my helpers...
[10/23/2010 12:29:37 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: spirit
[10/23/2010 12:29:42 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: snickers even
[10/23/2010 12:29:42 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: lol
[10/23/2010 12:30:38 AM] Chris Geo: ok
[10/23/2010 12:30:47 AM] Chris Geo: thank you
[10/23/2010 12:30:51 AM] Chris Geo: I won't disappoint you
[10/23/2010 12:30:57 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: make it a point to go outside everyday at least an hour.
[10/23/2010 12:31:00 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: take your shoes off
[10/23/2010 12:31:03 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: ground yourself
[10/23/2010 12:31:10 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: put your feet in the dirt, the grass
[10/23/2010 12:31:14 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: the clay, whatever you have
[10/23/2010 12:31:19 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: sit with your back up to a tree
[10/23/2010 12:31:23 AM] Chris Geo: the concrete or the carpet?
[10/23/2010 12:31:26 AM] Chris Geo: hehehe
[10/23/2010 12:31:27 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: lol
[10/23/2010 12:31:41 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: drink your gallon of water each day
[10/23/2010 12:31:42 AM] Chris Geo: I was actually sitting with my back to a tree when Iwas talking to you on the phone earlier
[10/23/2010 12:31:46 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: PURE SPRING WATER :)
[10/23/2010 12:31:48 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: nice
[10/23/2010 12:32:19 AM] Chris Geo: did you listen tot hat clip by any chance?
[10/23/2010 12:32:25 AM] Chris Geo: when you get a chance, please do
[10/23/2010 12:32:25 AM] Chris Geo: :)
[10/23/2010 12:32:35 AM] Chris Geo: I hope that was one step in teh right direction
[10/23/2010 12:32:35 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: oh no, I forgot, I'm sorry..........I had to switch skypes and then I realized, shit...opps
[10/23/2010 12:32:42 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: okay, I will, sorry
[10/23/2010 12:32:44 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: Louie called
[10/23/2010 12:32:52 AM] Chris Geo: just now?
[10/23/2010 12:33:00 AM] Chris Geo: oh, later
[10/23/2010 12:33:10 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: now :)
[10/23/2010 12:33:14 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: you want to chat?
[10/23/2010 12:33:19 AM] Chris Geo: sure :)
[10/23/2010 12:33:22 AM] Chris Geo: if you'd like
[10/23/2010 12:33:27 AM] Chris Geo: unless you want to talk to him
[10/23/2010 12:33:37 AM] Chris Geo: we really have been going off the fucking wall lately
[10/23/2010 12:33:42 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: lol
[10/23/2010 12:33:47 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: as long as youre having fun...
[10/23/2010 12:33:54 AM] Chris Geo: no. that's not right
[10/23/2010 12:33:57 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: lol
[10/23/2010 12:34:03 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: oh, I thought I was a drama queen?
[10/23/2010 12:34:12 AM] Chris Geo: that was zach
[10/23/2010 12:34:14 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: lol
[10/23/2010 12:34:15 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: dick
[10/23/2010 12:34:18 AM] Chris Geo: i know
[10/23/2010 12:34:21 AM] TruthBrigadeDOTcom: :D
[10/23/2010 1:06:41 AM] Chris Geo: thank you
Thursday, November 11, 2010
[10/23/2010 5:40:54 PM] Chris Geo: I'm scared.
[10/23/2010 5:41:00 PM] Christie Aphrodite: really?
[10/23/2010 5:41:06 PM] Christie Aphrodite: nothing to fear INCLUDING fear itself
[10/23/2010 5:41:26 PM] Chris Geo: doesn't being aware of these entities make you that much more suseptable?
[10/23/2010 5:41:37 PM] Christie Aphrodite: actually, quite the opposite
[10/23/2010 5:41:42 PM] Christie Aphrodite: many people don't know they exist
[10/23/2010 5:41:46 PM] Christie Aphrodite: so they get sucked on even more........
[10/23/2010 5:42:03 PM] Christie Aphrodite: the ones that know know what to look for so can prevent it or remove immediately if they so choose
[10/23/2010 5:42:19 PM] Christie Aphrodite: had I known what was on my heart, I guearantee you it wouldn't be there...
[10/23/2010 5:42:21 PM] Christie Aphrodite: :)
[10/23/2010 5:42:28 PM] Christie Aphrodite: now I know what to look for
[10/23/2010 5:42:38 PM] Chris Geo: but how do you keep them away?
[10/23/2010 5:42:48 PM] Christie Aphrodite: of course that was done to me as a child, so I went my whole liife winthout knowing or even knowing what to look for...jsut knew something was off
[10/23/2010 5:42:54 PM] Christie Aphrodite: well, spiritual purity :)
[10/23/2010 5:43:11 PM] Christie Aphrodite: we did a show once about the 8 steps to spiritual purity
[10/23/2010 5:43:20 PM] Christie Aphrodite: I can find that for you or we can go more indepth on another show...
[10/23/2010 5:43:27 PM] Christie Aphrodite: you won't like the answer from me...I promise
[10/23/2010 5:43:28 PM] Christie Aphrodite: lol
[10/23/2010 5:43:41 PM] Christie Aphrodite: it's all the things you know you should do, but don't really want to....................
[10/23/2010 5:43:50 PM] Chris Geo: like what? not have sex?
[10/23/2010 5:44:07 PM] Christie Aphrodite: well, that is one....for now, to learn to detach from that and reharness your power that you forgot you have
[10/23/2010 5:44:15 PM] Christie Aphrodite: Zach was a patch, a replacement, a fake
[10/23/2010 5:44:20 PM] Christie Aphrodite: that's not true power
[10/23/2010 5:44:32 PM] Christie Aphrodite: a sucker
[10/23/2010 5:44:34 PM] Chris Geo: ok but what about this...
[10/23/2010 5:44:35 PM] Christie Aphrodite: to prevent you
[10/23/2010 5:44:52 PM] Christie Aphrodite: and that's only one aspect
[10/23/2010 5:44:56 PM] Chris Geo: sex is the greatest gift God gave us. It's the deepest love two people can share.
[10/23/2010 5:45:00 PM] Christie Aphrodite: yes
[10/23/2010 5:45:02 PM] Christie Aphrodite: when used properly
[10/23/2010 5:45:22 PM] Christie Aphrodite: you ahve never had proper sex...no disrespect, but zach has been with you since you were 14, right? that means you ahve never had sex without him
[10/23/2010 5:45:24 PM] Christie Aphrodite: :)
[10/23/2010 5:45:26 PM] Christie Aphrodite: so...............
[10/23/2010 5:45:32 PM] Christie Aphrodite: this will opne up the world you are looking for
[10/23/2010 5:45:37 PM] Christie Aphrodite: TRUE POWER FROM SEX
[10/23/2010 5:45:42 PM] Christie Aphrodite: but you cannot fake it
[10/23/2010 5:45:46 PM] Chris Geo: I want tantric spiritual sex
[10/23/2010 5:45:50 PM] Christie Aphrodite: that's what the illuminati wants you to do
[10/23/2010 5:45:50 PM] Chris Geo: with somebody I love
[10/23/2010 5:46:01 PM] Christie Aphrodite: yes, you wil have it, but not till you are completely clean
[10/23/2010 5:46:05 PM] Christie Aphrodite: you can have the fake versions
[10/23/2010 5:46:06 PM] Christie Aphrodite: for sure
[10/23/2010 5:46:09 PM] Christie Aphrodite: and it can feel okay
[10/23/2010 5:46:15 PM] Christie Aphrodite: hence when men say any sex is good sex
[10/23/2010 5:46:18 PM] Christie Aphrodite: that's just physical
[10/23/2010 5:46:27 PM] Christie Aphrodite: you want the higher realms you ahve to be clean and pure
[10/23/2010 5:46:30 PM] Chris Geo: I'm tired of that kind of sex
[10/23/2010 5:46:38 PM] Chris Geo: I dont' even look at porn anymore
[10/23/2010 5:46:40 PM] Christie Aphrodite: then it's time to do something idfferent
[10/23/2010 5:46:44 PM] Christie Aphrodite: :)
[10/23/2010 5:46:45 PM] Christie Aphrodite: you can do it
[10/23/2010 5:46:47 PM] Chris Geo: but let me ask you this...
[10/23/2010 5:46:50 PM] Christie Aphrodite: work on small steps rigth now
[10/23/2010 5:46:53 PM] Christie Aphrodite: start with your body
[10/23/2010 5:46:53 PM] Chris Geo: what about the physical need for sex?
[10/23/2010 5:46:56 PM] Christie Aphrodite: your helath
[10/23/2010 5:46:59 PM] Chris Geo: you know when you're pregnant?
[10/23/2010 5:47:02 PM] Chris Geo: same concept
[10/23/2010 5:47:08 PM] Christie Aphrodite: well...that's a myth...........mind over matter
[10/23/2010 5:47:15 PM] Christie Aphrodite: that's a physical desire that one can overcome
[10/23/2010 5:47:21 PM] Christie Aphrodite: and direct it appropriately
[10/23/2010 5:47:29 PM] Chris Geo: hmmm
[10/23/2010 5:47:34 PM] Christie Aphrodite: pretending to have that sex with someone will not open the doors you are seeking
[10/23/2010 5:47:49 PM] Chris Geo: please forgive me for being crude but I'm not sure how to phrase this
[10/23/2010 5:47:52 PM] Christie Aphrodite: lol
[10/23/2010 5:48:01 PM] Chris Geo: testicals literally swell up with fluid that has to be released
[10/23/2010 5:48:07 PM] Christie Aphrodite: tha'ts not true
[10/23/2010 5:48:10 PM] Christie Aphrodite: you transform it :)
[10/23/2010 5:48:12 PM] Chris Geo: but it is.
[10/23/2010 5:48:14 PM] Christie Aphrodite: into energy :)
[10/23/2010 5:48:21 PM] Chris Geo: When I dont' ahve sex for a while, my balls ACHE
[10/23/2010 5:48:21 PM] Christie Aphrodite: and you become even MORE energized
[10/23/2010 5:48:28 PM] Christie Aphrodite: I understnad, but that is an illusion
[10/23/2010 5:48:29 PM] Chris Geo: not sex.. just getting off
[10/23/2010 5:48:58 PM] Christie Aphrodite: do you really think you need to listen to your dick? is your dick smarter and more powerful than your mind and your heart?
[10/23/2010 5:49:01 PM] Chris Geo: brb gotta put the clothes in the dryer
[10/23/2010 5:50:38 PM] Christie Aphrodite: see, that is what THEY want you to think...my dick speaks so I need sex now, that is the only thing that will cure me...lol SEX is NOT INFINITE LOVE.... :) neither is sex love, having sex with the wrong people in the wrong circumstances in the wrong time will only further feed the best
[10/23/2010 5:51:13 PM] Christie Aphrodite: if you want what you want, you must do the work to get there :) and that means learning to overcome that frivolus whimsical physical desire and mastering that flow...directing it to whereever you need...
[10/23/2010 5:51:18 PM] Christie Aphrodite: I will find something for you to read......
[10/23/2010 5:51:34 PM] Chris Geo: I'll do the work
[10/23/2010 5:51:38 PM] Chris Geo: will you wait for me to get there?
[10/23/2010 5:52:07 PM] Chris Geo: here is the thing too though. I haven't had any contact with anyone else in about a month.
[10/23/2010 5:52:07 PM] *** Christie Aphrodite sent Tantric_20Secrets_20393.pdf ***
[10/23/2010 5:52:28 PM] Chris Geo: Yea, I talk a lot of sht on Louie's show. But really, I'm not seeing anyone. I haven't even had so much a a comforting hug
[10/23/2010 5:53:00 PM] Christie Aphrodite: and there you will find you don't NEED it.....you may want it, but when you clean out the cobwebs so to speak, you will be able to realize what you desire :)
[10/23/2010 5:53:04 PM] Christie Aphrodite: on a pure level
[10/23/2010 5:53:12 PM] Christie Aphrodite: the need to say those things on Louie's show will even go away
[10/23/2010 5:53:15 PM] Christie Aphrodite: even those thoughts
[10/23/2010 5:53:46 PM] Chris Geo: but I feel like I'm missing a rib
[10/23/2010 5:54:10 PM] Chris Geo: metaphorically speaking of course
[10/23/2010 5:54:11 PM] Christie Aphrodite: isn't god greater than that?
[10/23/2010 5:54:24 PM] Chris Geo: honestly?
[10/23/2010 5:54:31 PM] Christie Aphrodite: GOD is INFINITE LOVE! LOVE IS GOD! LOVE WILL OVERCOME YOUR PHYSICAL DESIRES :)
[10/23/2010 5:54:33 PM] Chris Geo: the love of God is the love of a a good woman
[10/23/2010 5:54:50 PM] Christie Aphrodite: you may feel that now, but even that is subject to change...so let it... :)
[10/23/2010 5:54:59 PM] Chris Geo: ok. I trust you.
[10/23/2010 5:55:05 PM] Christie Aphrodite: you can either hange the universe/god to fit your perception or you can change your mind to fit go :)
[10/23/2010 5:55:11 PM] Christie Aphrodite: god/universe
[10/23/2010 5:55:12 PM] Christie Aphrodite: :)
[10/23/2010 5:55:38 PM] Chris Geo: I just feel like I'm spitting in God's face by denying to enjoy the greatest gift he gave us. The ability to make love.
[10/23/2010 5:55:47 PM] Chris Geo: but there is plenty of time
[10/23/2010 5:55:49 PM] Christie Aphrodite: it's not love Chris
[10/23/2010 5:55:54 PM] Christie Aphrodite: how many times has your sex been with love?
[10/23/2010 5:55:55 PM] Christie Aphrodite: be honest
[10/23/2010 5:56:03 PM] Christie Aphrodite: you are attached to the illusion that you know
[10/23/2010 5:56:06 PM] Christie Aphrodite: but that is not the whole truth
[10/23/2010 5:56:12 PM] Christie Aphrodite: be willing to accept that possibility
[10/23/2010 5:56:17 PM] Christie Aphrodite: there is more out there, I promise
[10/23/2010 5:56:28 PM] Christie Aphrodite: it's way better than you can imagine right now with the physical attachments :)
[10/23/2010 5:56:32 PM] Christie Aphrodite: WAY BETTER :)
[10/23/2010 5:56:51 PM] Chris Geo: ok. I trust you.
[10/23/2010 5:57:27 PM] Christie Aphrodite: god doesn't want people to fuck like jackrabbits and have unconsious sex.............that's satan/devil/demons/illuminat/whatever.........
[10/23/2010 5:57:45 PM] Christie Aphrodite: god wants you to fuck like jackrabbits with HIM/GOD/GODDES/LOVE
[10/23/2010 5:57:46 PM] Christie Aphrodite: :)
[10/23/2010 5:58:16 PM] Chris Geo: I find that flawed, so let me get your take on this idea
[10/23/2010 5:58:23 PM] Chris Geo: if that were true. the species would end
[10/23/2010 5:58:32 PM] Chris Geo: because nobody would be making love or children
[10/23/2010 5:58:37 PM] Christie Aphrodite: what klind os epcies are we building?
[10/23/2010 5:58:41 PM] Christie Aphrodite: a clone speices
[10/23/2010 5:58:45 PM] Christie Aphrodite: iunconsious species
[10/23/2010 5:58:46 PM] Christie Aphrodite: why?
[10/23/2010 5:58:48 PM] Christie Aphrodite: unconsious sex
[10/23/2010 5:58:52 PM] Christie Aphrodite: why is there stds?
[10/23/2010 5:58:54 PM] Christie Aphrodite: unconsious sex
[10/23/2010 5:58:57 PM] Christie Aphrodite: unwanted pregnanacies
[10/23/2010 5:59:00 PM] Christie Aphrodite: unconsious sex
[10/23/2010 5:59:04 PM] Chris Geo: because they are manufactured by the drug companies
[10/23/2010 5:59:10 PM] Christie Aphrodite: with real LOVE and God in our sex that all goes away
[10/23/2010 5:59:33 PM] Christie Aphrodite: you ahve as much sex as you want, but if you choose to do it in unclean state, it will only reap more uncleanliness and your children will be the poffspring of those demons
[10/23/2010 6:00:00 PM] Chris Geo: ok. I can understand that
[10/23/2010 6:00:16 PM] Chris Geo: I thought you were implying that we have to be celebant (however you spell it:P)
[10/23/2010 6:00:21 PM] Chris Geo: celebate
[10/23/2010 6:00:23 PM] Christie Aphrodite: nope, not at all
[10/23/2010 6:00:26 PM] Christie Aphrodite: God wants you to have sex
[10/23/2010 6:00:26 PM] Chris Geo: oh. ok.
[10/23/2010 6:00:27 PM] Christie Aphrodite: foir sure
[10/23/2010 6:00:31 PM] Christie Aphrodite: but CONSIOUS SEX
[10/23/2010 6:00:34 PM] Christie Aphrodite: not unconsious
[10/23/2010 6:00:40 PM] Christie Aphrodite: tell me when your sex life has worked out for you
[10/23/2010 6:00:46 PM] Christie Aphrodite: when have you been fulfilled?
[10/23/2010 6:00:59 PM] Chris Geo: never
[10/23/2010 6:01:07 PM] Christie Aphrodite: exactly
[10/23/2010 6:01:11 PM] Christie Aphrodite: isn't it time to try something different?
[10/23/2010 6:01:11 PM] Chris Geo: I've always gotten bored and wanted something different
[10/23/2010 6:01:15 PM] Christie Aphrodite: a different woman won't give you that
[10/23/2010 6:01:20 PM] Christie Aphrodite: yup
[10/23/2010 6:01:23 PM] Christie Aphrodite: it's not outside of you
[10/23/2010 6:01:26 PM] Christie Aphrodite: it's within you :)
[10/23/2010 6:01:28 PM] Christie Aphrodite: it's not the owman
[10/23/2010 6:01:30 PM] Christie Aphrodite: woman
[10/23/2010 6:01:35 PM] Christie Aphrodite: that can give that to you
[10/23/2010 6:01:41 PM] Christie Aphrodite: you have to give that to you, THEN come together with a woman
[10/23/2010 6:01:45 PM] Christie Aphrodite: not until then
[10/23/2010 6:01:52 PM] Christie Aphrodite: IF you really want what you say you want
[10/23/2010 6:02:01 PM] Chris Geo: yea, I really do
[10/23/2010 6:02:41 PM] Christie Aphrodite: so I suggest working on the addiction to the physical somewhat pleausre of sex.....over come that, transform that...keep yourself clean in all areas............. :)
[10/23/2010 6:02:48 PM] Christie Aphrodite: God is bigger than any physical realm addiction
[10/23/2010 6:02:54 PM] Christie Aphrodite: you can have it all! :)
[10/23/2010 6:10:08 PM] Christie Aphrodite: http://truthbrigade.org/smf/index.php/topic,4512.0.html
[10/23/2010 6:10:42 PM] Christie Aphrodite: k, I need to finish getting ready, I'm late
[10/23/2010 6:10:46 PM] Christie Aphrodite: talk soon :)
Hmmm....so who is pressuring who?
More conversations....now do these chats look anything like the hollywood script posted earlier today on geo's fantasy wall?
[10/22/2010 1:07:48 PM] Chris Geo: how are you today?
[10/22/2010 1:07:55 PM] Chris Geo: I'm just trying to help louie out
[10/22/2010 1:08:00 PM] Chris Geo: and keep myself occupied ;)
[10/22/2010 1:12:01 PM] Chris Geo: and I understand, you need time to think about things and get comfortable enough to let me into that wall you've put up around you. I completely understand and it's ok. I just feel like I should not keep running into it because quite frankly, despite my horns being tough, it still hurts a bit. So just let me know when the coast is clear ok??
[10/22/2010 1:13:06 PM] Chris Geo: actually, it hurts a lot more than just a bit. But that's neither her nor there.
[10/22/2010 1:13:26 PM] Chris Geo: *here nor there*
[10/22/2010 1:20:53 PM] Chris Geo: and quite frankly, it's tough for me to not say sweet things to you because I'm use to speaking from the heart. I'm a bit of a hopeless romantic, "love at first sight" etc. etc. etc. It's probably just progaming I need to work on. So yea.... take your time and let me know if and when the time is right for you.
[10/22/2010 1:31:44 PM] Chris Geo: But you know, I think communication is really one of the major keys to life. So rather than leave it at with you wondering or assuming what I mean, maybe I should just say it. You haven't once said anything to the effect of "I can't wait to see you", "I'd love to give you a hug", "I want to be in your arms", nothing even remotely close. I've been feeling like I've been talking you into something you don't want to do and the last thing I want to do is force something that isn't right. And it seems like when you do open up a bit, you quickly retract it and just confuse the hell out of me. And then to take it a step further I see you giving more affection and warmth to people you are totally not interested in than me. So it has me wondering, "wow, I must be really low on the todem pole". And yes, we've spent hours and hours on the phone, and it's GREAT! But yea... that's where I am and what i'm feeling now. So I'm leaving it all up to you butterfly.
[10/22/2010 3:44:58 PM] Christie Aphrodite: hi there...I'm sorry, I don't want to make you feel that way. You are right, I need time, time to understnad what's going on, time to absorb the pain of losing my sweet little angels that I think about constantly, cry at night because I miss them so much, feeling their sweet little cheeks, their smiles, their hugs...they were my life! Not many people can understand this type of love until you have it so there are not many people I can talk about that with. I need to process this now and alchemize these feelings into my internal power. As for giving time to people, that's what I do, I love everyone...like I said before, when I enter into relationships, friendships I ask, how can I lift this person up...what does this person need. Being able to absorb and disperse their stuff helps me process my own, I need to be available for whoever needs me. I'm not much into frivolous relationships, yet I want my time free to be available for where ever the spirit leads me. I also need my time completely alone to figure these things out and reclaim my power. I know I am on the verge of something big, a major breakthrough here which is instrumental not only in my growth, but the path I chose. I cannot move forward when silly little things are festering at the surface....like yours and Louie's disdain for moose and the need to talk about or denigrate those in your life that you don't like. I like to know that I am safe when opening my heart and when I hear you go on about ex's and treating women as objects, that doens't make me feel safe and loved. It makes me question your intent...I hear you say one thing, then a few minutes later, something totally contradictory...that causes me to reel in my trust, pushes me back in my soul...but I think that's where I need to be...perhaps the reason I keep getting those signs...I didn't feel comfortable with your questions of Tobias in your perception of my "issues and or path." To try to prove me wrong in your limited experience...? It makes me think geez...I'm not respected, my whole life has to be publicized...from one's perception without really understanding where I'm coming from...? Then to hear you both denigrate me and realize that you are telling people things about me that are supposed to be personal...how does that facilitate trust? I can't completely trust someone just like that out of the blue just because you tell me I can. If that was so, I think you would be showing me on these shows and such that you really are that person who will hold my feelings and emotions in high reguard, not to be desicrated by perception and occasional twisting of information to suit your needs. I don't fault you, I think the world of you, but I feel like I have been pressured into a relationship...we don't even know each other and I don't think you take my life and true path seriously. If I really was the woman foor you or the woman you've been looking for, then you would be willing to wait, wait for me to be the woman I want to be, wait for me to feel comfortable with sharing that type of relationship, not you trying to convince me that there is something wrong with me because I don't feel the need for that type of relationship. I have ot be honest with you, I thought your "shows" with Louie last night were disgusting and while it's none of my business what you do, I believe it's relevent to be truthful about it when explaining how your actions have contributed to me feeling that this is not right and questioning how much I really can trust you. I think I have been disrespeced enough...maybe it's immaturity, maybe it's just a game for you and Louie, but while I love you both, I have had enough of that. What's with all the talk about infinite love? Where is the work? Where is the resistence? Where is the dedication? Simply saying it doesn't make it so...I could have though of a million better things to do this past week, productive things, but it was more important to you to play games... I really don't even want to say these things because I don't want to be a party to any bad feelings. I don't have any hard feeling towards you, or Louie, but I have to choose what feels good in my life and what doesn't. That doesn't feel good to me, I would rather spend my time in my studies and making a better life, a better self, a better world... I'm not impressed by "big names" and I'm not impressed with the material perception of the world... I realize many do not understand my chpoices,but they are not for others to understand, they are for me to understand. One minute you ask for my wisdom, then the next tell me I'm totally wrong and you know better even though you've never experienced what I have and even though you really don't even understand the wholness of my expereince....perhaps this time you complain about me spending with other people could be better psent trying to get to know that part of me if that was your goal. Instead it's like a contest to prove me wrong...maybe my path is wrong for you, tha'ts perfectly okay, but it is not wrong for me. It is me, it is my choice and those in my life that I choose to entrust with my faith and intimate love will understand that. I appreciate you believing you can escape pain and loss, and I really hope you do...however it is in those experiences where you find God and your true inner power...I am in one of those deaths and rebirths rigth now, I need to be encouraged, not discouraged from feeling my pain......while ayhuasca and dmt are fabulous, they are not the end all be all. It takes much more work than that...and I think wholeheartedly relying on that for spiritual insights is somewhat limiting and dependent. I take my path very seriously and I don't think anyone should question my associations, especially when you yourself are not exactly making the best decisions in who you choose to hang with. Wasn't it you befriending jim for over 6 months? I only lasted a few weeks and never looked back, never prank called him, never did anytihg other that document the evidence of his attacks so I ahd something to answer the feds with every time they came to my door courtesy of jim....who you heard ADMITTED working WITH my family...then you go and tell me that I am being hurt because of my choices...LMAO I really don't think you understand that there are some things out of your control that happen for something entirely different than we are capable of understanding at the time...............I also believe that is insensitive and somewhat arrogant and immature.......which is okay, it's just where you are on your path, but I do promise you this...if you really do want to be a shaman, you WILL see things from a deeper perspective and you WILL experience the yuck of the world...if not, how wil you ever have the compasison to help others in their dark night...? So you can disagree with me all you want, but to air our personal conversations on the show or other shows is not cool in my book, it is hurtful and I don't think it's something that someone I could trust with my heart would do. I love doing shows with you, I like being able to discuss and point out all possibilities of all sides of every issue, that's what I've been doing here for years. I know I have a lot to offer, I have substance, experience and heart...I'm not misleading anyone, lying to anyone or trying to gain from anyone or their names. I am following my path the way Spirit has lead.........you can disagree with me all you want, but do not force me to think something else, then talk about me becuase you don't get your way...I really suggest, as I did before that you take some time to get to know yourself. I feel that if you do not, and do not TRULY ask Zach to go away that you will continue to fall into the deceptions of the physical realms. I think you ahve the right idea to lock yourself in your studio and work on your next album...you are soooooooooooooooooo very talented, you are a powerhouse within, but I don't even think you know your real power. I think you have had glimpses of physical power, which is totally different than inner power. Inner power can say no to the powers that be, are not mesmerized by the flashy lights and glitter...........not just go along with it because it wil be more confortable and even possible more fun, or to get you a higher social status....that's not my world, I'm uncomfortable in that world...I really want to see you use your inner power, recognize it and see that you do not have to give in to your frivolous physical desires to feel good or to reach spiritual realms. Yes, it can be used in that way, but that is not something that can be rushed in to..................that takes a long time to build that type of trust and when done unconsiously will only invite "demons" and negative influences in........also, having sex with a woman, will implant your buddy Zach and whoever else you ahve there in her!!! Do you know that? This is serious, this is not a game and not to be taken lightly! I have battled these guys by myself all these years! I will not be with a man in that manner that I have to worry about being sucked on or implanted with their demons...I have worked hard my whole life to get where I am...and although there is much more, I am PURE. I am not going to mix my energy with anything other than that which is pure. I would love to see you do the work, I would love to see you achieve all you dream of, I would love to see you realize you can be even bigger and greater than that...............I think for now, if you don't hate me for not falling for your advances just like that, I would like to be there for you in your growth. I would like to do what we can to make a successful show together. I would like to take TIME to see if I can trust you with my most sacred inner world.......I would like to see where our ideas and experiences can take us...I would like to get to know you no quicker than I am comfortable with, I would like to not have to defend myself and my reasons for doing things the way I do...I would like to speak only of positive things...things that will help us move forward spiritually, emotionally, physically...I would like to see this creative power in action with no attachments to any outcome...just knowing that we are doing the best thing we could be doing with our time at this moment. If it is important to you that I am ready and willing to have an intimate relationship, then I have to make sure you know that I am not capable of providing that right now...if that is what you need, I am sorry, I am not that woman. I cannot force myself to be and neither can anyone else. I want you to be happy, and if that makes you unhappy, I respect your needs and respect how you choose to proceed. I mean no ill will and certainly don't want to confuse you or hurt you anymore. I do not want to be the source of anyone's pain so whatever I have to do to make that better, please let me know. I apologize for any pain I may have caused you and hope you forgive me. If what I need right now is not okay with you, I totally understand. I want you to be yourself and be true to your heart. Thank you for listening to my ramble............... :)
[10/22/2010 4:06:47 PM] Chris Geo: hey there
[10/22/2010 4:06:48 PM] Chris Geo: WOW
[10/22/2010 4:07:12 PM] Chris Geo: I'm really happy that you finally opened up to me and told me how you feel. I feel very relieved.
[10/22/2010 4:07:24 PM] Chris Geo: And I completely understand where you are coming from.
[10/22/2010 4:07:51 PM] Chris Geo: I think about your girls on a daily basis but I don't mention it because you don't. I wish I were the shoulder that you cry on.
[10/22/2010 4:08:32 PM] Chris Geo: And I understand the loss you are going through. But again, I didn't mention is because you don't mention it. I'm sorry if I'm confused as to how to handle this situation.
[10/22/2010 4:08:55 PM] Chris Geo: And the last thing I want to do is "push" you into a relationship. That's why I just backed off.
[10/22/2010 4:11:33 PM] Chris Geo: and no, I don't feel you are wrong. We each walk our own path. I was simply trying to point out that there is another way.
[10/22/2010 4:13:30 PM] Chris Geo: and I'm sorry if I made you feel bad. I really am. I felt like I was trying to be something that you didn't want me to be, so I stopped telling Louie "hey, watcha mouf" whenever he'd say something disrespectful to you.
[10/22/2010 4:15:01 PM] Chris Geo: There is nothing more that I would love then to be your MAN. And I'm not talking about being with you, I mean, doing the things a man should do for his woman. Standing up for her to begin with. But I've been pretty hurt with the lack of response that I started to feel like I was playing the fool.
[10/22/2010 4:15:26 PM] Chris Geo: And I know I bring myself down to a lower level when I'm on Lou's show. I know that it's very unbecoming of me.
[10/22/2010 4:18:57 PM] Chris Geo: I'm just going to back off everything right now and just chill
[10/22/2010 4:22:24 PM] Chris Geo: And I'll be here butterfly. I'm not going anywhere
[10/22/2010 4:22:36 PM] Chris Geo: Take as much time as you need. Really.
[10/22/2010 4:23:00 PM] Chris Geo: I'm a ram... sorry if I butted into you. It's what I do
[10/22/2010 4:23:02 PM] Chris Geo: :P
[10/22/2010 4:23:29 PM] Chris Geo: can you forgive me for intruding and hurting you?
[10/22/2010 4:41:37 PM] Christie Aphrodite: lol, thank you.........of course.............sorry had to go bathe and hang :)
[10/22/2010 4:42:09 PM] Christie Aphrodite: cleanse and meditate...it's so beautiful outside right now...all the colors, the beautiufl birdies singing...the crickets...gentle warm breeze...
[10/22/2010 4:42:19 PM] Chris Geo: can I call you for a few?
more to come, I promise.
Thanks for your silly stories about me ego, I now feel justified and exposing you for the slime you are.
So do any of these chats look like I was chasing geo or was it the other way around?
Funny how they always say the same thing after you tell these little boys no.
His reply here:
Wow, I am still laughing my butt off at that scripted conversation that supposedly took place with me and ego... LOL
I really thought that Chris would at least post a real conversation with REAL time stamps. Instead as my skype and docs show that we never even had a conversation that day! I blocked him on the 25. On the 28th he contacted me under a fake name, raziel225 after he sent me a message about wanting to come see me. He was upset that I didn't answer him or accept his repeated advances so he signed up in fake names to send me messages which I had copied in Louie Bee's skype as they came in, AND posted in a word doc.
That conversation is copied and pasted here.
You will see, the ONLY reason I responded to raziel was because I didn't know that it was Chris Geo stalking me in chat rooms to beg to come to my house and show me how much I supposedly love him.
This was his first message that came in on skype:
[10/28/2010 10:24:21 PM] Chris Geo: Hey. I just had the most horrible yet awakening dream. I don't hate you. In fact, quite the contrary. I'm just in a lot of emotional pain right now and have been for a while. I tas reading a few of our skype chats and it seems like you were fueled by my loving answers and replies. I just hit my breaking point. But in the end, we control our own reality. We have a choice between anger and love. I want to choose love. I was thinking about making a surprise visit tomorrow beause after all, what does internet bullshit have to do with real life?? As sweet as that sounds, I am a bit afraid of driving 15 hours round trip only to be yelled at and spoken to in a very low manor. So i guess my question to you is, how important is internet bullshit vs. real life, real time interaction with other people?? And one more question, are you capable of treating me with the respect and love I deserve or will you continue to treat me like I'm sub-human to cover your feelings for me, whatever they are??\I did not respond at all to that skype, which was the only one I had received from him since I walked out on his show on the 24th of October with Joe Rogan and the chat we exchanged on October 25 where I ultimately asked him to FUCK OFF since he wasn't going away after begging kindly for months!!! Then he contacted me at the Irritate the State chat room during Louie's show playing undercover, pretending he wasn't online...
The first message I did not copy since I didn't realize who it was. The question was "Are you there?"
I responded "Yes" and the following was what transpired.
I quit responding after explaining to him I was not interested in his games.
Chris's chat in RED, mine in GREEN (they are posted this way in skype because there is no way to save the im's at chatroll and I had a feeling I should let someone else know that he was contacting me in there since we had all asked him to leave me alone.)
[10/28/2010 11:34:59 PM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225this is chris . I was just listening to Louie's show on this account. I'm not getting involved with chatrooms or forums anymore. Anyway, I just sent you a skype message. I had a bad dream about you. Can you read it and let me know what you think??What do you want from me? What am I supposed to do about your dream? If you think I need to know your dream, send it to me on skype. All I want to know is who did it?[10/28/2010 11:40:40 PM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225Well, I'm not sure what you mean. What are you supposed to do about it? Well, whatever you'd like really. You're free to love me or hate me. I just felt like I should reach out one more time I guess. Who's idea was what?[10/28/2010 11:41:29 PM] Christie Aphrodite: I received a call from someone in the joe rogan forum...I know about the pm's now I just want to know who orchestrated it? I don't hate you , never did, but I don't like what you're doing.[10/28/2010 11:43:48 PM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225Butterfly. I'm not a vengeful person. I'm not sure what you think I'm "doing" but I've been writing music all day and trying to forget about this horrible bullshit. I'm not sure what PM's you are talking about or what the guy from the Joe Rogan board said.[10/28/2010 11:46:25 PM] Christie Aphrodite: not a vengeful person? there were only 3 people that could have done it...who was it?[10/28/2010 11:46:29 PM] Can you give me a call instead of typing on this thing? I'd love to understand what's going on and try to help you get to the bottom of it, or offer whatever input i can on the matter[10/28/2010 11:47:15 PM] Christie Aphrodite: what are you trying to do?[10/28/2010 11:47:21 PM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225I don't know butterfly.[10/28/2010 11:48:48 PM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225well, I was trying to put this 5 sense reality stuff behind us and go above that to a higher consciousness level where all of these stresses and spites don't mean anything. That level exists, I know it. But obviously something else is going on with you. I'[10/28/2010 11:49:12 PM] Christie Aphrodite: do you really think what you're doing doesn't mean a thing?[10/28/2010 11:50:35 PM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225sweetheart. I'm not doing anything. I wrote a blog addressing some of the e-mails. Even in the blog I said you have great insight and raise great questions, etc. etc. I'm not sure what else is going on. Butterfly, I'm not psychic, spell it out for me pleas[10/28/2010 11:51:03 PM] Christie Aphrodite: bullshit it was a straight up attack[10/28/2010 11:52:32 PM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225ok sweetheart. You've been treating me very poorly and I've been responding with love and kindness. I got tired of being treated badly and reached my breaking point. How many times can I say "I understand, I didn't realize, I'm sorry" and how many times ca[10/28/2010 11:53:58 PM] Christie Aphrodite: responding with love and kindness? treating you bad by not accepting your advances? you have disrespected me repeatedly and I know what you did with the pm's messages and comments[10/28/2010 11:54:08 PM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225can you accuse me of doing shit on purpose until I finally just snap and start yelling fuck you?? I'm a man after all. Most men would have snapped WAY before that. But I bit my tongue for hours and hours. I wish you'd see that.[10/28/2010 11:54:53 PM] Christie Aphrodite: snap for me saying no...? you do not respect me, you are not respecting my boundaries and then blaming me for not accepting them like I should in your mind.[10/28/2010 11:55:03 PM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225it would be easier to talk either on the phone or skype, or even skype IM. Can we do that??[10/28/2010 11:59:50 PM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225what advances? How can I make advances over skype?? Really christie, get grounded for a moment and stop living in your fantasy world for a moment and realize that you've treated me REALLY badly. I tried to learn from you and you just kept yelling at me[12:00:16 AM] Christie Aphrodite: what did I do to you that was bad?[12:03:52 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225For instance, you got mad about the Joe Rogan thing and inisted I did it on purpose. I said I'm sorry and I will reflect on it and you replied FUCK YOU, YOU DID IT ON PURPOSE. I admit I'm wrong about something but it isn't good enough for you. You still ha[12:04:40 AM] Christie Aphrodite: so what did I do to deserve your disrespect? this feels a lot like harassment? you wrote blogs about me and started shit, not me...can you please not hurt me anymore? thank you[12:04:53 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225have to yell at me for it for an hour while I'm packing stuff and carrying boxes up and down the stairs. Things like that.[12:05:18 AM] Christie Aphrodite: I did not yell at you, I was laughing the whole time wondering why you still can't hear me...[12:05:28 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225and the worst of all... you say over and over that all I want is sex from you. As if I can't get any and I have to drive 7.5 hours just for sex! It hurts so bad when you say that because it discounts all of these feelings I have for you. If you don't want[12:06:04 AM] Christie Aphrodite: then why can't you seprate a physical relationship from the show?[12:06:11 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225I can't type on this thing. I keep getting cut off. Can you please call me on my cell??[12:06:42 AM] Christie Aphrodite: I really dohn't feel like talking, I feel like I'm being harassed and I feel really drained, I really don't think there is anything to talk about...please think about what you did...[12:08:25 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225I wrote blog about Sheree and mentioned you for two sentences by saying that I agree that your voice doesn't fit but you offer a lot of great insight etc. etc. and you call that an attack??[12:08:31 AM] Christie Aphrodite: lol[12:08:55 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225I can separate a relationship from the show. I definitely don't want to do the show with you, I know that. Fuck the show.[12:09:38 AM] Christie Aphrodite: and I told you that's all I was interested in even though it was YOU who suggested that. I never asked to be on your show! now you say I was tyring to control your show? lmao[12:10:30 AM] Christie Aphrodite: lol[12:11:27 AM] Christie Aphrodite: if I'm sooo bad, why do you want to talk to me? I thought you blocked me everywhere and took down my archives and videos you made?[12:12:02 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225then why were you tripping out when I was running my show then?? I didn't say a word when I was on your show. I let you run everything and cut me off over and over mid sentence. But it's ok, it's your show.[12:12:39 AM] Christie Aphrodite: that was not the case Chris...what do you want from me?[12:12:49 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225Can you be honest with me for a second?? What happened butterfly? We use to spend hours and hours talking to each other, talking about seeing each other, etc. etc. What happened? How did we get here??[12:14:03 AM] Christie Aphrodite: I think that's something you need to reflect on...how did you contribute...did you really show infinite love and choose that each moment? did you respect my boundaries or keep pusing me? did you slander me or let me go away peacefully?[12:14:13 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225Can we please talk on the phone or on skype IM?? This is getting annoying getting cut off everytime I want to say something becaue of the text limit.[12:14:42 AM] Christie Aphrodite: just tell me everything you want me to know in skype...where you said you blocked me and if I feel I need to respond, I will let you know...[12:14:55 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225what do I want? To forgive, forget and love. That's it. If you say I don't know how to love.. well show me how then.[12:15:57 AM] Christie Aphrodite: then do it...I don't think you are hearing me...I really don't see the point. You pried things out of me, I gave it to you, and you chose not to listen, I don't want to do this again...I think you need to check your ego...why are you so bothered by me?[12:16:07 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225I let you go away peacefully. I respected your boundries. You put a bunch of our personal stuff out there. You felt I was pushing because I was "talking" about stuff. You felt I was "advancing" on you over "skype". Simply because I wanted the same respect[12:16:53 AM Edited 12:17:23 AM] Christie Aphrodite: I am going to bed, you are not hearing me, this conversation is over. Good night! :)[12:17:07 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225that's another thing that hurt by the way. a few things you said "it's beyond your perception" and "I don't even know if it's worth my time to tell you". I guess nobody practices this "infinite love" everyone preaches now a days. That's why I'm done with t[12:17:43 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225I did? Where?[12:20:26 AM] Christie Aphrodite: Raziel225Everyone seems to "attack" you Christie. Maybe it's not something wrong with eveyone else. Maybe it's something wrong with you.
and THIS is where his story changes...
[10/28/2010 11:19:35 PM] Chris Geo: this is the last message we exchanged on skypeNext blog I will post him begging me to be with him, what a wonderful couple we would be, all he's going to do for me if I get over my "fear of infinite love," and how perfect I am for him, how much he loves me and will always love me because I am the best thing that ever happened to him...
[10/28/2010 11:19:44 PM] Chris Geo: before you called me to yell at me more
[10/28/2010 11:19:49 PM] Chris Geo: I replied with nothing but love
[10/28/2010 11:19:53 PM] Chris Geo: as I did on the phone
[10/28/2010 11:20:21 PM] Chris Geo: then on the phone you kept yelling at me
[10/28/2010 11:20:34 PM] Chris Geo: while I was moving and packing and carrying boxes up and down stairs
[10/28/2010 11:20:40 PM] Chris Geo: because I respected you, I listened
[10/28/2010 11:20:58 PM] Chris Geo: finally at the end, I reached my breaking point
[10/28/2010 11:21:06 PM] Chris Geo: you tell me you have "spirit helpers"
[10/28/2010 11:21:13 PM] Chris Geo: but you call mine "demons"
[10/28/2010 11:21:43 PM] Chris Geo: you tell everyone you love them
[10/28/2010 11:21:46 PM] Chris Geo: literally
[10/28/2010 11:22:00 PM] Chris Geo: but I get the cold shoulder because I'm... what? In love with you??
[10/28/2010 11:22:25 PM] Chris Geo: so because I feel strongly about you, that means you have to be colder to me?? Colder than you are to strangers??
[10/28/2010 11:22:46 PM] Chris Geo: and you call this an attack??
[10/28/2010 11:22:52 PM] Chris Geo: "As for Christie, I completely agree that her voice and ideas do not compliment the show. After reading your e-mails I tried to get her to soften it up a bit and maybe put a little more sexy into it but she acted like she had no idea what I was talking about. I didn’t want to force anything on and I definitely didn’t want to hurt her feelings so I tried to be subtle, but she just didn’t get it. On the brighter side, Christie has some great insight and raises a lot of great questions. So she really has her moments. But yes, I totally agree that the voice doesn’t work with Truth Frequency. She’s no longer the co-host of Truth Frequency so I am sorry for jumping the gun and posting her as the new co-host."
[10/28/2010 11:24:49 PM] Chris Geo: and then you say over and over that I just want sex. As if you have this magical golden pussy that I have to drive 7.5 hours for.
[10/28/2010 11:24:53 PM] Chris Geo: What's really going on?
[10/28/2010 11:25:06 PM] Chris Geo: Is it really that hard to believe that someone actually loves you?
[10/28/2010 11:25:13 PM] Chris Geo: Does it have to be about sex with you ALL THE TIME?
[10/28/2010 11:25:29 PM] Chris Geo: Is your self esteem that low that you think that is all you are worth? A peice of ass?
[10/28/2010 11:26:54 PM] Chris Geo: I wish you would just say something like "I'm not attracted to you" or "I simply don't like you" or whatever. But to stab me repeatedly with your words for the simple fact that I'm in love with you and you can't handle that is, well... it's sick Christie.
[10/28/2010 11:29:53 PM] Chris Geo: Anyway, I just had this bad dream that something happened to you and I never got to make amends with you. So I thought I'd write and try to and maybe create a paralell timeline where we rectified our differences instead of dwelling on all of this negativity. But some people love negativity I guess. do you feel incomplete without drama in your life???
[10/28/2010 11:33:50 PM] Chris Geo: Anyway, I'm sorry I even bothered. I think I'd rather go outside and talk to the wall. It's warmer there and it responds in a more human like manner. I guess what it all comes down to is I just wanted to be treated like you treat everyone else but instead, I am somehow LESS than everyone else because I have the potential to be MORE in your life. So you can't handle success or happiness because God knows if you are happy you can't achieve "spiritual enlightenment" so you make yourself miserable all the time in hopes of some great reward in the afterlife because of all of your suffering. But the reality of it is God, the universe or whatever is just going to look at you and say "why didn't you enjoy and apprecaite the life I gave you??" and who knows what happens from there. So.... it is what it is... fuck it... I'm done... enjoy your misery.... and good night. You're like a vortex of bad energy and once you get sucked into the Christie vortex then you can't get out because it follows you everywhere you go and even haunts your dreams.
[10/28/2010 11:34:14 PM] Chris Geo: I was sooooo close to saying "I'm busy right now, I'd love for you to stop by but it's not a good time"
[10/28/2010 11:34:43 PM] Chris Geo: And as every minute passes I regret not doing that.
[10/28/2010 11:35:44 PM] Chris Geo: I reached my hand out to your for help and you just yelled at me because I was reaching out to you.
[10/28/2010 11:36:10 PM] Chris Geo: I was honest and open about my feelings and so you became cold because I expessed them
[10/28/2010 11:36:31 PM] Chris Geo: So I don't know. Obvously you have a problem responding to love.
[10/28/2010 11:36:55 PM] Chris Geo: Maybe it's you who needs to "practice what you preach"
[10/28/2010 11:37:05 PM] Chris Geo: Infinite love is total bullshit: Everything else is an illusion
[10/28/2010 11:38:04 PM] Chris Geo: do you know what it's like to offer your mind body and soul to someone and they just step all over it???
[10/28/2010 11:38:32 PM] Chris Geo: and I'm not talkng about not accepting it. But I'm talking about responding with ICE COLDNESS because of it
[10/28/2010 11:38:57 PM] Chris Geo: it's as if you thrive on returning loving emotions with hate
[10/28/2010 11:39:27 PM] Chris Geo: what's wrong with "Chris, I love you but I'm not ready for a relationship with anyone"??
[10/28/2010 11:39:44 PM] Chris Geo: instead you treated me lower than you treat a stranger in your chatroom
[10/28/2010 11:39:50 PM] Chris Geo: how the hell do you think that made me feel?
[10/28/2010 11:40:06 PM] Chris Geo: why do I have to sit here with my heart in peices and tears running down my fucking eyes???
[10/28/2010 11:40:49 PM] Chris Geo: GODDAMMIT!
[10/28/2010 11:43:11 PM] Chris Geo: I'm not worth your fucking time... Yea, I know!
[10/28/2010 11:43:25 PM] Chris Geo: I didnt' do anything but love you
[10/28/2010 11:43:45 PM] Chris Geo: biggest fucking mistake I've made in a long time
[10/28/2010 11:44:02 PM] Chris Geo: I'm worth so much more than you could ever imagine
[10/28/2010 11:44:41 PM] Chris Geo: you had no right to treat me like I was nothing
[10/28/2010 11:47:26 PM] Chris Geo: It's not worth your time to help someone who is seeking spiritual healing??? Yet that someone is supposed to help beef up your show and build you a new website??
[10/28/2010 11:47:46 PM] Chris Geo: Just admit it... you tried to use me and I didn't fall for it and so we ended up here.
[10/30/2010 12:32:56 AM] *** Christie Aphrodite blocked Chris Geo ***
Oh, and all of this was AFTER Louie had told him to back off and he said he was going to disappear online for a few days...LOL
Well why was he contacting me in fake names?
[10/28/2010 12:45:27 PM] Chris Geo: yea, I know. Maybe I am self centered and egotistical. Everyone's been telling me that lately. Like EVERYONE.[10/28/2010 12:46:21 PM] Chris Geo: yea I know. But the other day my dad told me that shit all day, then Christie called and her and I got into it (I was letting her yell at me while I was carrying boxes up and down the stairs trying to move), then Sheree calls to tell me that too.... I don't know. The universe is trying to tell me something for sure.[10/28/2010 12:47:00 PM] Chris Geo: so yea... honestly, man to man... what should I do different? Do I not listen to people enough? Do I ingore people? Do I talk about my shit too much?[10/28/2010 12:48:55 PM] The Crotch Shot Radio Show: you need to reflect[10/28/2010 12:49:07 PM] The Crotch Shot Radio Show: and see what your doing wrong[10/28/2010 12:49:17 PM] Chris Geo: ok[10/28/2010 12:49:24 PM] Chris Geo: I'm going to disappear for a couple of days[10/28/2010 12:49:31 PM] Chris Geo: gimmie a call on my cell if you need me[10/28/2010 12:49:33 PM] The Crotch Shot Radio Show: see i cant tell u cause you need to see[10/28/2010 12:49:46 PM] Chris Geo: ok[10/28/2010 12:49:56 PM] Chris Geo: thanks brother. Love ya[10/28/2010 12:50:45 PM] The Crotch Shot Radio Show: love ya too